19. Stardust
First Impressions
"I've never been with a woman before."
I met her for coffee. When I walked in, she was impossible to miss.
"That's fine," said Dani, "I'll take good care of you."
"It's just…" When I say she made me feel at ease, well, that's mostly true. "It's just, I don't want to waste your time. If it turns out I'm not… into girls."
"Seriously, you don't have to worry." This wasn't Dani's first time, "I'm more than happy to take your girl cherry," she laughed.
“I can't imagine what it's like to be that self-assured. And after you and me… well, you know. I was feeling especially shaky. I heard from Rob that you were seeing other people - that you were dating men! I didn't know if you were ever going to come back. And I got this idea in my head that maybe I should take the opportunity to explore my own sexuality.”
"I'm bisexual," said Dani, "so I've been where you are - dipping a toe, testing the lesbian waters. And it took a while to find someone who would take a chance on me."
I didn't know what I was doing with the dating apps. They weren't really a thing when you and me got together. And trying to advertise myself, being that exposed - it was too much. After a week I'd reached my limit and I was about ready to give up. Then Dani popped up, and I dunno. Maybe I was settling. There was just 'something' about her profile.
"That's why I always give people a chance. And why I'm patient and supportive of the baby gays. It's like queer public service, haha!"
Maybe it was fate.
"That's also how I got into being a 'unicorn'. You know what that is?"
I didn't.
"It's someone who'll be the third for a couple that wants to 'experiment'. We're called unicorns because we're so hard to find. And trust me, with couples you've got to be real patient."
"Oh wow. You must have some wild stories."
"Ha! Don't get me started… But the thing is, people think threesomes are gonna be hot, you know, double your pleasure? And it can be! I wouldn't do it if it wasn't. But an extra person can also throw off the balance. And if you're not stable, the whole thing can spin apart."
Yeah. That one hit way too close to home.
"Hey… you okay?"
I forced a smile, shook out the bad feelings, "yeah, sorry."
"You sure…? Anyway, you'd be surprised how many 'straight' girls leave their man after tasting 'the forbidden fruit'." I was still in my own head… Then she leaned in, and she whispered, "the forbidden fruit is my vagina in this metaphor."
That got me. Her dumb face when she said it; I burst out laughing in the middle of the coffee shop. I really missed joking around like that with you. And for the first time in a while, things felt kind of okay.
Formalities
"So what was it that drew you to the dark side?"
I didn't really want to get into it. I just told her that I'd recently gotten out of a long term relationship, and that I wanted to see what else was out there; you know, make up for lost time. She seemed fine with that.
"So is there anything you're particularly into, sexually? Anything you want to try for your first, and potentially only, time with another woman?"
"How, umm…" The sensible part of me was screaming at me not to say it. But the sensible part of me was never that strong, "how do you feel about… bondage?"
She invited me back to her place. I couldn't do it in my own bed, with our toys. Too many ghosts. And Dani wasn't into the kinky stuff like we were. Are.
"But I'll try anything once."
Dani pulled her clothes off like it was the most normal thing in the world. But for me… it dawned on me that it had been years since anyone besides you had seen me fully naked. I'd just met this woman! I didn't even have, like, my corset, or any of that stuff that helps me feel… 'the part'.
"Do you have any tights?"
I pulled her hands behind her back, and twisted the tights into a makeshift rope, wrapping it around her wrists, in between, and tied off. She pulled at her bonds, testing the stretch, "not bad."
"Is it okay, not too tight?"
"All good," she said with a smile. "What now, Mistress Sophie?"
That felt weird. I know I never asked you to call me that. It always felt too 'formal'. And the way Dani said, it wasn't really 'serious'. She was just playing along, you know? But I've got to admit, I kinda liked hearing it.
"I might have a few ideas…"
"Ha! I bet you do. Safe word?"
"I usually do 'yellow' to back off, 'red' to stop. Does that make sense?"
"Yep."
"Ready?"
"Yes, Mistress."
Fixation
"You can touch them if you like."
I was captivated by her boobs. We were sat on the bed together and, with her hands behind her back, her chest was pushed out towards me. I just couldn't seem to take my eyes off the metal studs going through her nipples.
"Did it hurt?" I gave them a curious poke, "getting them done?"
"Eh. No big deal. I can introduce you to my girl if you fancy some of your own."
The suggestion didn't really register. I don't know why, but all I could think was how much I wanted to feel them in my mouth. I leaned in. She chuckled when I flicked at her nipple with my tongue. God, I must have looked like such a newbie. I wrapped my lips around it, feeling the smooth metal studs rolling around my tongue. I sucked on her, pulling at the stud, stretching her nipple. And I felt a strange urge to bite her.
"Easy, Mistress," Dani winced.
There was something in her voice. Until then, she'd been so aloof, but now she sounded sincere. She was really pleading. And it re-awakened something in me - something that I'd tried to hold back since that fateful evening.
"On your knees."
Obediently, she climbed down onto the floor, on her knees, with her hands still bound behind her back. And when she looked up at me, my heart skipped a beat.
I casually leaned back and rested a foot on her shoulder. "What am I going to do with you?" I ran my foot over her, and her eyes followed. "Will you do anything for your Mistress?"
"Yes, Mistress," she said eagerly.
I teased her nipples with my toe, and she delighted in it. I lifted her chin with my foot, "will you kiss my feet?"
I held my foot up to her mouth and she smiled. She kissed my sole, and before I could complement her obedience, her mouth was around my big toe. That caught me by surprise. And when she started sucking…! You never did that to me, and I never wanted to force you, but wow! I had no idea what I was missing.
And that was only the start.
She ran her tongue all the way up my leg until her head was fully under my dress. My leg was resting over her shoulder, and her lips were all over my thighs, and I felt her breath on my… But then she stood, almost knocking me onto my back. She climbed onto my lap and leaned in close. I pulled my hair aside for her, and she buried her face in my neck - and you know I really like when you do that… Then she bit me! Like an actual vampire, she bit me on my neck! Heh, I kinda liked it, though.
By then I was flat on my back, and Dani was fully on top of me. She looked deep into the eyes and gave me this smile. It was, I dunno, kind of… cheeky? And she kissed me on the lips. Just a peck. I must have given her, like, a weird reaction though, because she backed off. I wasn't… I dunno. It just caught me off guard.
Anyway, it wasn't until she was sliding down my panties that I realised her hands weren't tied anymore. And then her mouth was between my legs and--
"Oh my God!"
Don't get me wrong, baby, you're really good. But this… this was something else. This was targeted.
"W-who said you could…?"
I'd fully lost control of the situation. I mean, I couldn't even think straight with her… her tongue…! Holy shit. And her hands were on my boobs, and she pinched my nipples, like, REALLY hard. It was all just so overwhelming.
"Did you enjoy that, mistress?" She looked so pleased with herself.
"You realise I'm going to have to punish you for that, right?"
Flagellation
Truthfully, I wasn't that upset that she'd disobeyed me. How could I be after that!
But you were always such a wimp, and I wasn't going to pass up the opportunity to give someone a proper spanking. Heh. And it's not like she didn't deserve it. After getting one over on me, I need to remind her who was in charge.
"Where do you want me, mistress?"
Sigh. "Can you at least try not to sound so sarcastic when you say that."
"Aww, sowwy mistwess."
I probably should have gagged her.
*smack*
Dani's arse was like a gift from God. And her skin was so soft; speckled with these tattoos of odd pop culture references - a red cross-shaped lightsaber on her right wrist, a blue phonebox on her thigh. I could have just sat stroking her, asking what it all meant.
"Come on, you've gotta spank me harder than that!"
I'd gotten more than I bargained for with Dani. "You know, subs aren't normally this demanding."
"Less talky, more spanky."
Yeah. I definitely should have gagged her. Well, she asked for it…
*SMACK*
Turns out, spanking can be really painful… for the one doing the spanking. My hand was stinging, and Dani remained frustratingly unfazed.
"Harder!"
Frisson
"Are you going to behave yourself?"
This time I wasn't taking any chances. With some more tights and stockings, I had her fully pinned down to the bed, spread-eagle. And I checked all the knots TWICE.
"Yes, mistress."
It didn't matter that she still wasn't taking it seriously, because now she was at my mercy, mwahaha.
I started with some teasing, running my fingers all over her, getting her nice and worked up. And the way she reacted when I slid my fingers inside her, and the little moan she made. I had her. I was back in control. And I was feeling pretty good about how it was going. Like, women aren't so different than men; this wasn't so hard. I could do this. I put my mouth on her, started licking her. She tasted so sweet.
"Up, up a bit…"
Ugh. "What did I tell you about making demands?"
"You just seem a little lost down there, mistress."
Maybe it was because she'd hit a nerve, but I couldn't take anymore of her teasing. I picked her panties up off the floor and did what I should have done a lot sooner. "I've had quite enough out of you," I said, shoving the panties in her mouth. She gave back a defiant stare, and honestly, I expected nothing less from her.
Truth be told, I was a bit lost. I mean, I know what I like when you're doing that to me, right? So why wasn't it working when I did the same things to her? I guess I had a lot of nerve assuming I'd be good at eating pussy on my first go.
Plan B, "do you have a vibrator?"
She rolled her eyes.
Yeah, okay. Dumb question. "Where's your vibrator?"
"O-um oo-or," she (sort of) said, gesturing her head towards the side of the bed. I opened the bottom draw and found a magic wand. Yeah. That girl doesn't mess around. I flicked it on, and ran it lightly along her stomach. Heh. Suddenly she wasn't so cocky. I dangled it over her nipple, hearing it clatter against her piercing, and saw her wince and clench her teeth. Not so tough after all.
I held it between her legs, and it hit her like a gale. Her body tensed, she pressed her head back hard into the pillow, her eyes rolled back. This time I really had her.
She was deep in the throws of pleasure. You know the look - like, fully out of it. I had her right where I wanted her, and I thought, now's the time to assert my dominance. I climbed on top of her, so that we were face to face. I was still holding the wand between her legs, and I could feel it lightly grazing my own pussy. And when I tell you, that thing was SO powerful… I almost let myself get distracted.
I pulled the panties out of mouth and gave the command quietly into her ear - "ask for my permission to cum".
But then, her expression changed. Her eyes focused on mine, and she got that smile again,
"You first."
Just then I felt the vibrator pressing harder against me, stealing my composure. It caught Dani too, and before I knew it, we were both on the edge. We were breathing heavily, our mouth hanging open, and I felt this strange impulse press my mouth into hers. Our lips moved together in a torrent of passionate kisses, and when our tongues touched…
Heh. Well in the end, neither of us asked for permission.
Fallout
Dani was terrible at being a sub.
But, oh my God, the sex was incredible! She'd hit all my spots with the precision of a surgeon. It might have been the best orgasm I'd ever had (no offense, baby). But as we were laying together in the post-orgasmic glow, I was hit with this overwhelming feeling of… sadness.
Dani held me in her arms, tried to comfort me, and just like that the tears started. Suddenly, all the stuff I didn't want to get into came pouring out of me. I talked about you. I told her about how we'd met. I told her about how kink had brought us closer together, and how it had blown us apart.
How I'd blown us apart.
"Now it's making more sense. 'Fear was your path to the dark side'. You'd make an excellent Sith."
She had a real skill for taking the wind out of my misery sails.
"You didn't break up because you fell out of love, it was just a bad situation. But you're clearly still in love with the guy. And from what you've told me, it sounds like he really loves you too."
Of course, deep down I already knew that. But hearing someone else say it made it feel more true. It gave me hope.
"Trust me, he'll come to his senses. And he'll be back, and kissing your feet before you know it."
"Heh. He's actually never done that. He thinks toes are weird."
"HE'S weird!"
You know, you're lucky I did wait for you to come back. 'Cause when she said that, I very nearly fell in love, haha!
"Listen, WHEN you and Mark get back together, you give a call, yeah? I'll get him worshipping those beautiful little toes."
Don't worry, baby, I'm not really gonna make you do that. Unless, of course…?
"And for the record, this was the furthest thing from a waste of time," she said. "Seriously, you can call me up any time, even if it's just as friends. I'll even let you cry on my shoulder and tell me about your boring hetero problems, haha!"
I'm so glad I met her.
What Mark doesn't know won't hurt him
"So, what do you think, mistress Sophie - ready for round three? Or have I worn you out?"
"Oh God, I think I'll need to eat something first."
"Ha! I mean, if you REALLY want to attempt 'that' again, I'm not gonna complain."
"Shut up, it was my first time!"
"Fear not, young apprentice. When I'm done with you, you will be a true Sith."
"Hahahah."
"But this time, YOU'RE the one getting tied up."
"Huh?"